Life has been very busy, so I regret that I haven’t been
able to keep this as up to date as I have been. BUT I have some awesome things
to go over today. Let’s begin with my December 1st goal of losing 10
pounds. No matter what happened I was going to celebrate because I have made
some difficult changes and achieved fantastic results in a short amount of
time. That didn’t stop me from being nervous to step on the scale though. I
didn’t actually weigh myself until December 2nd; I much prefer to be
off work on my weigh in days. My boys
and I got up, I got them ready for their day and sent them off on the bus
before going back inside to see how I had done. My heart was pounding as I
watched the numbers flashing to settle on my weight and I nearly screamed when
they stopped. I had lost another 2.2 pounds! That made it a total of 10.4 pounds
down! That meant another goal under my belt and a serious boost in my self
esteem.
So I am down to having 19.8 pounds to go to meet my goal by February
8th. I really want to push through the next two months to meet my
final goal. Being at my goal weight is more than changing that number on the
scale. With each improvement I make, from the food I am choosing to put in my
body, to the proper portions I have moved to, and finally to how I feel when I
look in the mirror, I am feeling better and better. I don’t want to stop that
feeling. I want to hit every goal I have set out to meet and feel great each
and every day. I want to brush the hurt and mental scars off my shoulders that
have been placed there by damaging people saying things they never knew would
stick with me this long and never think about those comments again. I always knew that this would be an
incredible journey, that it would be hard but worth it, but I never truly
realized the things it would bring forward in my mind and the hurdles I would
be able to overcome.
Today when I got dressed I put on a shirt I haven’t worn in
a very long time. When I looked in the mirror I felt a major boost in my self confidence.
I looked incredible; the only thing that made my shirt stick out was my belt.
Now that was a good feeling, to see myself in something that I haven’t been
able to wear in years because of how I felt in it and absolutely love the way
it looked had me holding my head a little higher.
I want to put together a plan for the coming weeks to boost
my activity level so that I can kick my goal achievement into high gear! I feel
like I am in the home stretch of this race and just before I sprint to the end
I have to make it up one last hill.
I know this entry is a bit shorter than all of the ones
before it, but I have to work early in the morning and still want to put
together all of my foods so I know I am all set for the day. I am
going to make more big changes this month and feel even better before the New Year
hits. Finally a New Year when my resolution will be less about losing weight and
more about maintaining a healthy lifestyle and ensuring every aspect of my life
is in order.
